AWESOME weekend!

this weekend was awesome.
on saturday me, jojo, sukma, ellen, jordan, indri and ming went to the Ellen White Memorial Churc @ LA...and when we got there it was the closing of VBS (Vacation Bible School) and so the little kids were performing and they had this Animal Track. They brought in reptiles! they had scorpio, tarantula, baby alligator, snake, etc. and WOLF! and so by the end of church we took pix with the snake and WOLF! heheeh then after church we went to indri's new place and she served late lunch :D mannn it was delicious! after that i crash and woke up at 6ish while jordan, jojo n sukma went to jojo's uda house to get rid of jordan's justin bieber hair lol. then we went to Chinatown to enjoy the Chinatown Summer Night Festival. It was so much fun but what's funny is that there no chinese food nor chinese music lol. then decided to go home. i was gonna stay at Edwin's place but Max won't let me. so then after Chinatown I stayed a little bit at Edwin's place and somehow got Edwin to drop me off at Max's with a promise (well not really a promise) that he can get high with Max's friends...lol and so me and edwin were at Max's place and everyone got home etc. etc. etc.

Edwin got super high.
I got super drunk.
Cannot walk.
Cannot talk.
Threw up.
Max took care of me.
Threw up some more.
Everything is just spinning.
Then I hit the bed.
Woke up with a terrible/horrible hungover!

then its sunday:
Pinky have to leave home as early as 8.
I asked if she could stay till 10.
She said No cuz she havto work early (3:30pm) tomorrow.
I waited till Max get off from work to figure things out.
Pick Max up with Greg's Honda that I like.
Then me and Max decided to take Greg's car.
BananaBay
homesweethome

then its monday:
slept late last night ;)
woke up at 8
got ready for work
went to the clinic to have me and max checked
me & max's HIV test = negative
the rest comes later so im still anxious
finished by 10:45ish
went to work
super tired
poor Max havto fill out paperwork for volunteering
finally 5
Max insisted on driving the car through the canyon
so i let him
he did good, hence im still alive :)
got home, really tired!
ate yesterday's leftover and cooked Korean Noodles for Max :)
convinced Max to go home tomorrow morning
CONVINCED!
Max helped moving stuff to the garage :)
threw out the bedding of the incomplete sofa bed thingy
landed on 1st floor
Me and Max layed down on the bedding and watched the stars :)
finishing cleaning up the apartment
and its 10.
fell asleep till 11:30pm
Max decided to eat in-n-out, buy his raspberry juice, fill up gas
home at 12:30pm
ate
then we were just talking
head to bed
chilling and listening to music
fly
listening to "Just the way you are"-Bruno Mars
(mannnn that song is really romantic)
and cute kisses :)
:| > :) > :D > x_X" > :)

then tuesday morning:
did not want to get up!
late to work
max also late for work
work
work
work
got home
fell asleep
talked to Max
found out he just threw my notes away :'(

then now:
and now...current mood, current feelings, current thoughts
mood:BT
feelings:mix
thoughts:
thoughts... what am I thinking atm?
I am just oh i dont know...acting up again?
at first I didnt even know that he threw my notes away
he was the one that sort of just told me since i asked where's the note
then he said "beb, why did you dig in the trash can"
that's when i know he really threw it away
which made me want to look for it.
kitchen trash: none
bathroom trash: none
room trash: TWO
*SIGH*
maybe its just me who is thinking too much
taking every little things too seriously
but i put my feelings in those notes! :(
so of course when i found it laying crimpled on the trash can
i feel hurt :'(
feels like my feelings for him is in the trash can
that is just a piece of shit!
of course he would not understand this girly things/feelings
since of course they won't care what the notes says
i mean if something is cute don't you want to keep it?
when i found those notes i honestly felt like crap
but i didnt want to force him to do stuff that he doesn't like
like keeping girly notes
i honestly could not think at the time i found those notes :(
it was such a horrible feeling!
then the most horrible feeling came...
feeling that everything is just fake
that everything is just something that he just had to do it in order not to hurt me
that everything is not real
that everything is a complete lies
that's how i felt
i dropped a few tears just by thinking of it
i unruffled the notes
i kept them
just for my memories
oh, my heart aches when i just wrote that
and i accidentally dropped a tear or two
i suppose notes doesn't do
so i'll stop writing him notes

now my eyes are falling asleep
i should head to bed
take some rest
it's been a long weekend
interesting one.

sweet dreams and good night